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So today is the wedding. Very happy for everyone involved. I wish Jena and Mauricio all kinds of happiness, and love, and luck and blessings. I am so thankful that the church and group of people that I've met down here are so welcoming and inviting that I'm invited to such a special event after being here only 2 months (officially today!).
However, I'm really hoping that I can get out of my self-involved, selfish mood and really enjoy myself. And stop focusing on the fact that in all likelihood I will be one of a very small handful of single (as in not married or dating anyone)people there.
I'm finding myself part of a dying group (or at least dwindling) and it seems to get smaller and smaller as I get older. I've gone through the "I'm single" cycle. Done the "oh my goodness I just broke up with my boyfriend and I'm miserable and need to be dating someone else right now!" stage. Done the "hey, I'm single, I don't have any commitments, I can do whatever I want" stage. Done the "I'm really comfortable being on my own and it no longer bothers me that I'm not dating anyone" stage. And apparently we've rolled around to the "Being single is not as much fun after you've watched your friends, co-workers and family members pair off with someone and you're wondering if you will ever find anyone" stage. I don't like it. As someone much wiser than me sort of said (and I'm paraphrasing here - forgive me) I feel like I need to be with somebody just to relate to my friends. But I'm obviously not there yet. And I really don't want to be jumping into something just for the sake of dating someone. Gah. Ok, this is getting me nowhere and is not nearly as cathartic as I had hoped it would be. Off to go join the realm of the people facing the day.
However, I'm really hoping that I can get out of my self-involved, selfish mood and really enjoy myself. And stop focusing on the fact that in all likelihood I will be one of a very small handful of single (as in not married or dating anyone)people there.
I'm finding myself part of a dying group (or at least dwindling) and it seems to get smaller and smaller as I get older. I've gone through the "I'm single" cycle. Done the "oh my goodness I just broke up with my boyfriend and I'm miserable and need to be dating someone else right now!" stage. Done the "hey, I'm single, I don't have any commitments, I can do whatever I want" stage. Done the "I'm really comfortable being on my own and it no longer bothers me that I'm not dating anyone" stage. And apparently we've rolled around to the "Being single is not as much fun after you've watched your friends, co-workers and family members pair off with someone and you're wondering if you will ever find anyone" stage. I don't like it. As someone much wiser than me sort of said (and I'm paraphrasing here - forgive me) I feel like I need to be with somebody just to relate to my friends. But I'm obviously not there yet. And I really don't want to be jumping into something just for the sake of dating someone. Gah. Ok, this is getting me nowhere and is not nearly as cathartic as I had hoped it would be. Off to go join the realm of the people facing the day.
