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Pax Interruptus
Jun. 30th, 2008 09:44 pmThis weekend marked my third SCA event, and the second in which I spent time in the kitchen. I do enjoy the cooking and meal prep, but I'm not one who tolerates poor planning anymore. Stresses me out! On the plus side, after lunch I successfully ran away from the kitchen and just played, wandering around, visiting with people, shopping. ::smiles::
I do wish I had made it to the archery shoot. It just was so hot, and I had already struggled to make it to the event (the internal anti-social struggle that morning was a significant one), I failed at struggling to go compete in something I knew I would choke on. I enjoy competition, in some ways it is fun, but for some reason, I'm still in the "choke" phase for archery. It was also pointedly remarked on by the archery marshall that he was disappointed I hadn't made it and that "great things are expected of me". Oh dear Lord, pressure.
I really enjoy the SCA things I've been doing, but I will admit to having some difficulties with the pressure aspect. Challenging myself because I want to is great... getting myself into challenges because I'm swaying with expectations/suggestions/remarks made by others... maybe not so good. I'll just have to pay better attention.
I do wish I had made it to the archery shoot. It just was so hot, and I had already struggled to make it to the event (the internal anti-social struggle that morning was a significant one), I failed at struggling to go compete in something I knew I would choke on. I enjoy competition, in some ways it is fun, but for some reason, I'm still in the "choke" phase for archery. It was also pointedly remarked on by the archery marshall that he was disappointed I hadn't made it and that "great things are expected of me". Oh dear Lord, pressure.
I really enjoy the SCA things I've been doing, but I will admit to having some difficulties with the pressure aspect. Challenging myself because I want to is great... getting myself into challenges because I'm swaying with expectations/suggestions/remarks made by others... maybe not so good. I'll just have to pay better attention.
